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Lying awake on my bed full of lies, A soft padding of air disguising the pillows of deceit and loneliness. You held me awake in your eyes, When inside my heart was asleep. The cold numbness of a forgotten tomorrow, Living in the world of a constant yesterday, Dwelling in the black and white photograph of a distant memory, Erased by time and replaced with one of vibrant color. Chapped lips against the icy mirror of solitude and quiet truth, A trite excuse for unbelonging. Holding hands in an unloyal bond upon a tryst of hangovers and deadly pills, The chemical inside killing what was left of life within us I felt it die within us I

Lying awake with you by my side, A lonely expense to fake to gain your sweetest kiss. Your hand gliding against my cheek, A lullaby so sweet A voice inside my head, The tickle in my feet. You were the lullaby inside my mind, You were the lullaby that rocked me to sleep at night. I heard your tears as you tried to solve your misery, Even though I was so far away I cried with you Every time you denied the truth I knew the real you underneath those layers of lies, You were protecting me from yourself because you knew we both had nothing else. Your laughter was the sound that lulled me to sleep, But your heart is what's keeping me,

A creak in the ceiling uncertain, A smash of glass to the floor. Hitting with a wailing quietness, The eerie sense of more. A tumbling essence of silence, Coming to rest in the door. A timeless importance to the mother who adored you, And to the Man who called Himself your Father. The vibrant hiss of control in his fist, As he threw your body against the door. Memories tearing away like a faulty plaster, Memories fading away, faster faster. I tried to touch sun with bare fingers, Only to have them burnt away. A compliant angle of misunderstanding, The darkest wave of true misconception in the turned up corners of your lips, Se

I lay my heart on the back of your hand And watched you balance it through and through As we lay sprawled out in the sand The cold ocean water straddled you Your eyes as dark and cold as ice But your smile as warm as the sun When I was cold you put your arm around me And I was all right again The sound of your voice gave me my reassurance To go on living in this world The cold blue sea running between our toes As our holding hands pressed into the sand My eyes will always say what words cannot And my lips will never fear your touch You can never see the world through a mirror But I can see you standing next to me With the soft

I could go about screaming my trauma into the ears of those who care, if they were there Distance is not a matter of miles but by the heart beating too many steps behind Running away is the only thing I have left to do now without any fear of tripping Hiding has only worked so many times Tell me now Tell me now What you meant by all those words Tell me now Tell me now Tell me the truth for once in your life Tell me now Tell me now What my love really means to you Tell me now Tell me now Tell me what it is that I do, that makes you love me too? Your angelic kiss makes what's left of my tattered wings shred apart My worn out soul o

I never dream.. Hariana sat on the cold hard ground, wide awake, her cut and bruised calves wrapped in long white bandages, another bandage around her shoulder. It was raining again, but the night was completely clear of any cloud or storm. It was a perfect midnight blue, a tumble of stars speckling its widespread beauty, and then the moon. A full, flawless moon, silver and glowing above, stared down at Hariana through the light shower of water that fell around her. Hariana didn't like staying inside. Her philosophy was that if she was inside she was in a cage, contained, caught. And nobody could ever catch her. She was the best there was,

all you can do is flatter me you say all the things i wanna hear and i believed you (believed you) youre hypocritical i dont understand you at all you say one thing when you mean another all of this is such a bother i just cant let myself be bait to this anymore prechorus its not my fault youre so damn dumb and whenever you kiss me i become numb its not like i have a choice all i want is to show my voice show my true colors chorus give me a hint give me a clue cuz baby im so lost in you and trying so hard not to cry because all my insides are turnin up dry im lost.. in you. youre as funny as hell im as tough as nails

this is mine whatever i have left the fire burned down so much but new things sprout up from the ashes always.. nothing's wrong i just want to take back what i created i gave you my heart and i want it back because it's mine and you never deserved it anyway the water is flowing around my head tonight and i can't keep my eyes open any longer praying for a happy end hoping it never will the fog won't cease on this road i ride on my eyes are starting to shut my hands falling on top of the nails that i drove through myself the cold dripping from my eyes as my lips begin to crack i stop trying to cling to something thats to slic