Hungry for the moaning moon
And circle of sweet caresses gently touching the night sky's stars
A lonely face melted into the moon
I swear I see a tear fall
And I circle you with arms evenhanded
Your pain will disintegrate
As we fall away
this is mine
whatever i have left
the fire burned down so much
but new things sprout up from the ashes
always..
nothing's wrong
i just want to take back what i created
i gave you my heart
and i want it back
because it's mine
and you never deserved it anyway
the water is flowing around my head tonight
and i can't keep my eyes open any longer
praying for a happy end
hoping it never will
the fog won't cease on this road i ride on
my eyes are starting to shut
my hands falling on top of the nails that i drove through myself
the cold dripping from my eyes as my lips begin to crack
i stop trying to cling to something thats to slic
all you can do is flatter me
you say all the things i wanna hear
and i believed you (believed you)
youre hypocritical
i dont understand you at all
you say one thing when you mean another
all of this is such a bother
i just cant let myself be bait to this anymore
prechorus
its not my fault youre so damn dumb
and whenever you kiss me i become numb
its not like i have a choice
all i want is to show my voice
show my true colors
chorus
give me a hint
give me a clue
cuz baby
im so lost in you
and trying so hard
not to cry
because all my insides
are turnin up dry
im lost..
in you.
youre as funny as hell
im as tough as nails
I never dream..
Hariana sat on the cold hard ground, wide awake, her cut and bruised calves wrapped in long white bandages, another bandage around her shoulder. It was raining again, but the night was completely clear of any cloud or storm. It was a perfect midnight blue, a tumble of stars speckling its widespread beauty, and then the moon. A full, flawless moon, silver and glowing above, stared down at Hariana through the light shower of water that fell around her.
Hariana didn't like staying inside. Her philosophy was that if she was inside she was in a cage, contained, caught. And nobody could ever catch her. She was the best there was,
I could go about screaming my trauma into the ears of those who care, if they were there
Distance is not a matter of miles but by the heart beating too many steps behind
Running away is the only thing I have left to do now without any fear of tripping
Hiding has only worked so many times
Tell me now Tell me now
What you meant by all those words
Tell me now Tell me now
Tell me the truth for once in your life
Tell me now Tell me now
What my love really means to you
Tell me now Tell me now
Tell me what it is that I do, that makes you love me too?
Your angelic kiss makes what's left of my tattered wings shred apart
My worn out soul o
I lay my heart on the back of your hand
And watched you balance it through and through
As we lay sprawled out in the sand
The cold ocean water straddled you
Your eyes as dark and cold as ice
But your smile as warm as the sun
When I was cold you put your arm around me
And I was all right again
The sound of your voice gave me my reassurance
To go on living in this world
The cold blue sea running between our toes
As our holding hands pressed into the sand
My eyes will always say what words cannot
And my lips will never fear your touch
You can never see the world through a mirror
But I can see you standing next to me
With the soft
Lying awake on my bed full of lies,
A soft padding of air disguising the pillows of deceit and loneliness.
You held me awake in your eyes,
When inside my heart was asleep.
The cold numbness of a forgotten tomorrow,
Living in the world of a constant yesterday,
Dwelling in the black and white photograph of a distant memory, Erased by time and replaced with one of vibrant color.
Chapped lips against the icy mirror of solitude and quiet truth,
A trite excuse for unbelonging.
Holding hands in an unloyal bond upon a tryst of hangovers and deadly pills,
The chemical inside killing what was left of life within us
I felt it die within us
I
Lying awake with you by my side,
A lonely expense to fake to gain your sweetest kiss.
Your hand gliding against my cheek,
A lullaby so sweet
A voice inside my head,
The tickle in my feet.
You were the lullaby inside my mind,
You were the lullaby that rocked me to sleep at night.
I heard your tears as you tried to solve your misery,
Even though I was so far away I cried with you
Every time you denied the truth I knew the real you underneath those layers of lies,
You were protecting me from yourself because you knew we both had nothing else.
Your laughter was the sound that lulled me to sleep,
But your heart is what's keeping me,
A creak in the ceiling uncertain,
A smash of glass to the floor.
Hitting with a wailing quietness,
The eerie sense of more.
A tumbling essence of silence,
Coming to rest in the door.
A timeless importance to the mother who adored you,
And to the Man who called Himself your Father.
The vibrant hiss of control in his fist,
As he threw your body against the door.
Memories tearing away like a faulty plaster,
Memories fading away, faster faster.
I tried to touch sun with bare fingers,
Only to have them burnt away.
A compliant angle of misunderstanding,
The darkest wave of true misconception in the turned up corners of your lips,
Se
I lay my heart on the back of your hand
And watched you balance it through and through
As we lay sprawled out in the sand
The cold ocean water straddled you
Your eyes as dark and cold as ice
But your smile as warm as the sun
When I was cold you put your arm around me
And I was all right again
The sound of your voice gave me my reassurance
To go on living in this world
The cold blue sea running between our toes
As our holding hands pressed into the sand
My eyes will always say what words cannot
And my lips will never fear your touch
You can never see the world through a mirror
But I can see you standing next to me
With the soft
I could go about screaming my trauma into the ears of those who care, if they were there
Distance is not a matter of miles but by the heart beating too many steps behind
Running away is the only thing I have left to do now without any fear of tripping
Hiding has only worked so many times
Tell me now Tell me now
What you meant by all those words
Tell me now Tell me now
Tell me the truth for once in your life
Tell me now Tell me now
What my love really means to you
Tell me now Tell me now
Tell me what it is that I do, that makes you love me too?
Your angelic kiss makes what's left of my tattered wings shred apart
My worn out soul o
I never dream..
Hariana sat on the cold hard ground, wide awake, her cut and bruised calves wrapped in long white bandages, another bandage around her shoulder. It was raining again, but the night was completely clear of any cloud or storm. It was a perfect midnight blue, a tumble of stars speckling its widespread beauty, and then the moon. A full, flawless moon, silver and glowing above, stared down at Hariana through the light shower of water that fell around her.
Hariana didn't like staying inside. Her philosophy was that if she was inside she was in a cage, contained, caught. And nobody could ever catch her. She was the best there was,
all you can do is flatter me
you say all the things i wanna hear
and i believed you (believed you)
youre hypocritical
i dont understand you at all
you say one thing when you mean another
all of this is such a bother
i just cant let myself be bait to this anymore
prechorus
its not my fault youre so damn dumb
and whenever you kiss me i become numb
its not like i have a choice
all i want is to show my voice
show my true colors
chorus
give me a hint
give me a clue
cuz baby
im so lost in you
and trying so hard
not to cry
because all my insides
are turnin up dry
im lost..
in you.
youre as funny as hell
im as tough as nails
this is mine
whatever i have left
the fire burned down so much
but new things sprout up from the ashes
always..
nothing's wrong
i just want to take back what i created
i gave you my heart
and i want it back
because it's mine
and you never deserved it anyway
the water is flowing around my head tonight
and i can't keep my eyes open any longer
praying for a happy end
hoping it never will
the fog won't cease on this road i ride on
my eyes are starting to shut
my hands falling on top of the nails that i drove through myself
the cold dripping from my eyes as my lips begin to crack
i stop trying to cling to something thats to slic
i havent been on in a while and all the stuff iwas writing on my comp at home got erased and im disappointed, cuz now all that poetry i wrote is gone..uh, oh well. ill write n post here again really soon.
too much has been happening to begin to write in here, itd take too long to type out. but in short i saw Dan yesterday after he told me last night all this romantic shit that i shouldntve believed. so anyway i saw him yesterday for like an hour or so and we kissed n he was like "lets go for round 2" (meaning lets try dating again cuz weve dated before) so it turns out he just wants a fling and nothing special or whatever with me even after he said all that so i yelled at him and he either blocked me or he just signed off. but i dont care, im too good for this kinda shit (not to sound conceited, but its true) so i dont think were together any